Chapter One
The city was silently bloating in the hot sun, rotting like the thousands
of bodies that lay where they had fallen in street battles. An
oppressive, hot wind blew from the southeast, carrying with it the
putrefying stench of decay. And outside the city walls, Death itself
waited in the persons of Titus, son of Vespasian, and sixty thousand
legionnaires who were anxious to gut the city of God.
Even before the Romans crossed the Valley of Thorns and
camped on the Mount of Olives, warring factions within Jerusalem's
city walls had prepared the way for her destruction.
Jewish robbers, who now fled like rats before the Roman
legions, had recently fallen upon Jerusalem and murdered her
prominent citizens, taking over the holy temple. Casting lots for
the priesthood, they turned a house of prayer into a marketplace
of tyranny.
Fast behind the robbers came rebels and zealots. Directed by
rival leaders—John, Simon, and Eleazar—the warring factions
raged within the three walls. Swollen with power and pride, they
sliced Jerusalem into bloody pieces.
Breaking the Sabbath and the laws of God, Eleazar stormed
Antonia Tower and murdered the Roman soldiers within it. Zealots
rampaged, murdering thousands more who attempted to
bring order back to a maddened city. Unlawful tribunals were set
up and the laws of man and God mocked as hundreds of innocent
men and women were murdered. Houses full of corn were
burned in the chaos. Famine soon followed.
In their despair, righteous Jews prayed fervently for Rome to
come against the great city. For these Jews believed that then, and
only then, would the factions within Jerusalem unite in one cause:freedom against Rome.
Rome did come and, their hated ensigns held high, their war
cry rang across all of Judea. They took Gadara, Jotapata, Beersheba,
Jericho, Caesarea. The mighty legions marched in the very
footsteps of devout pilgrims who came from every corner of the
Jewish nation to worship and celebrate the high holy days of the
Feast of the Unleavened Bread—the Passover. Innocent tens of
thousands poured into the city and found themselves in the midst
of civil war. Zealots closed the gates, trapping them inside. Rome
came on until the sound of destruction echoed across the Valley
of Kidron against the walls of Jerusalem itself. Titus laid siege to
the ancient, holy city, determined to end Jewish rebellion once
and forever.
Josephus, the Jewish general of fallen Jotapata who had been
taken captive by the Romans, wept and cried out from atop the
first wall defeated by the legionnaires. With Titus' permission, he
pleaded with his people to repent, warning them that God was
against them, that the prophecies of destruction were about to be
fulfilled. Those few who listened to him and managed to evade
the zealots in their escape reached the greedy Syrians—who dissected
them for the gold pieces they had supposedly swallowed
before deserting the city. Those who didn't heed Josephus suffered
the full fury of the Roman war machine. Having cut down every
tree within miles, Titus built siege engines that hurled countless
javelins, stones, and even captives into the city.
From the Upper Market Place to the lower Acra and the Valley
of Cheesemongers between, the city writhed in revolt.
Inside the great temple of God, the rebel leader John melted
down the sacred golden vessels for himself. The righteous wept
for Jerusalem, the bride of kings, the mother of prophets, the
home of the shepherd king David. Torn asunder by her own
people, she lay gutted and helpless, awaiting her death blow from
hated Gentile foreigners.
Anarchy destroyed Zion, and Rome stood ready to destroy
anarchy . anytime . anywhere.
Hadassah held her mother, tears blurring her eyes as she stroked
the black hair back from her mother's gaunt, pale face. Her
mother had been beautiful once. Hadassah remembered watching
her take her hair down until it lay, glistening in thick waves,
against her back. Her crowning glory, Papa called it. Now, it was
dull and coarse, and her once-ruddy cheeks were white and
sunken. Her stomach was swollen with malnutrition, the bones of
her legs and arms clearly outlined beneath a gray overdress.
Lifting her mother's hand, Hadassah kissed it tenderly. It was
like a bony claw, limp and cool. "Mama?" No response. Hadassah
looked across the room at her younger sister, Leah, lying on a
dirty pallet in the corner. Thankfully, she was asleep, the agony of
slow starvation briefly forgotten.
Hadassah stroked her mother's hair again. Silence lay upon her
like a hot shroud; the pain in her empty belly was almost beyond
endurance. Only yesterday she had wept bitterly when her mother
had uttered thanks to God for the meal Mark had been able to
scavenge for them: shield leather from a dead Roman soldier.
How long before they all died?
Grieving in the silence, she could still hear her father speaking
to her in that firm but gentle voice. "It is not possible for men to
avoid fate, even when they see it beforehand."
Hananiah had spoken these words to her scant weeks ago—though
now it seemed like an eternity. He had prayed all that
morning, and she had been so afraid. She had known what he
was going to do, what he had always done before. He would go
out before the unbelievers and preach about the Messiah, Jesus of
Nazareth.
"Why must you go out again and speak to those people? You
were almost killed the last time."
"Those people, Hadassah? They're your kinsmen. I'm a
Benjaminite." She could still feel his gentle touch on her cheek.
"We must seize every opportunity we can to speak the truth and
proclaim peace. Especially now. There's so little time for so
many."
She had clung to him then. "Please, don't go. Father, you know
what'll happen. What'll we do without you? You can't bring
peace. There is no peace in this place!"
"It is not the world's peace I speak of, Hadassah, but God's.
You know that." He had held her close. "Hush, child. Do not
weep so."
She wouldn't release him. She knew they wouldn't listen—they
didn't want to hear what he had to tell them. Simon's men would
slash him to pieces before the crowd as an example of what
became of those who spoke for peace. It had happened to others.
"I must go." His hands had been firm, his eyes gentle, as he
had tipped her chin. "Whatever happens to me, the Lord is
always with you." He'd kissed her, hugged her, then put her away
from him so he could embrace and kiss his other two children.
"Mark, you will remain here with your mother and sisters."
Grabbing and shaking her mother, Hadassah had pleaded,
"You can't let him go! Not this time!"
"Be silent, Hadassah. Who are you serving by arguing so
against your father?"
Her mother's reprimand, though spoken gently, had struck
hard. She had said many times before that when one did not serve
the Lord, they unwittingly served the evil one instead. Fighting
tears, Hadassah had obeyed and said no more.
Rebekkah had laid her hand against her husband's gray-bearded
face. She had known Hadassah was right; he might not
return, probably wouldn't. Yet, perhaps, if it was God's will, one
soul might be saved through his sacrifice. One might be enough.
Her eyes had been full of tears and she could not—dared not—speak.
For if she had, she was afraid she would join Hadassah in
pleading that he stay safe in this small house. And Hananiah
knew better than she what the Lord willed for him. He had
placed his hand over hers and she had tried not to weep.
"Remember the Lord, Rebekkah," he had said solemnly. "We
are together in him."
He had not returned.
Hadassah leaned down over her mother protectively, afraid she
would lose her, too. "Mother?" Still no response. Her breathing
was shallow, her color ashen. What was taking Mark so long? He
had been gone since dawn. Surely the Lord would not take him as
well
In the silence of the small room, Hadassah's fear grew. She
stroked her mother's hair absently. Please, God. Please! Words
wouldn't come, at least not any that made sense. Just a groaning
from within her soul. Please what? Kill them now with starvation
before the Romans came with swords or they suffered the agony
of a cross? Oh, God, God! Her plea came, inarticulate and desperate,
helpless and full of fear. Help us!
Why had they ever come to this city? She hated Jerusalem.
Hadassah fought against the despair inside her. It had become
so heavy, it felt like a physical weight pulling her into a dark pit.
She tried to think of better times, of happier moments, but those
thoughts wouldn't come.
She thought of the months long ago when they'd made the
journey from Galilee, never expecting to be trapped in the city.
The night before they had entered Jerusalem, her father set up
camp on a hillside within sight of Mount Moriah, where Abraham
had almost sacrificed Isaac. He told them stories of when he
was a boy living just outside the great city, speaking far into the
night of the laws of Moses, under which he had grown up. He
spoke of the prophets. He spoke of Yeshua, the Christ.
Hadassah had slept and dreamt of the Lord feeding the five
thousand on a hillside.
She remembered that her father had awakened the family at
dawn. And she remembered how, as the sun rose, light had
reflected off the marble and gold of the temple, turning the structure
into a blazing beacon of fiery splendor that could be seen
from miles away. Hadassah could still feel the awe she had felt at
the glory of it. "Oh, Father, it is so beautiful."
"Yes," he had said solemnly. "But so often, things of great
beauty are full of great corruption."
Despite the persecution and danger that had awaited them in
Jerusalem, her father had been full of joy and expectation as they
entered the gates. Perhaps this time more of his kinsmen would
listen; more would give their hearts to the risen Lord.
Few believers of the Way remained in Jerusalem. Many had
been imprisoned, some stoned, even more driven away to other
places. Lazarus, his sisters, and Mary Magdalene had been driven
out; the apostle John, a dear family friend, had left Jerusalem two
years before, taking the Lord's mother with him. Yet, Hadassah's
father had remained. Once a year, he had returned to Jerusalem
with his family to gather with other believers in an upper room.
There they shared bread and wine, just as their Lord Jesus had
done the evening before his crucifixion. This year, Shimeon Bar-Adonijah
had presented the elements of the Passover meal:
"The lamb, the unleavened bread, and the bitter herbs of the
Passover have as much meaning for us as for our Jewish brothers
and sisters. The Lord fulfills each element. He is the perfect Lamb
of God who, though without sin himself, has taken the bitterness
of our sins upon him. Just as the captive Jews in Egypt were told
to put the blood of a lamb on their door so that God's wrath and
judgment would pass over them, so Jesus has shed his blood for
us so that we will stand blameless before God in the coming Judgment
Day. We are the sons and daughters of Abraham, for it is by
our faith in the Lord that we are saved through his grace"
For the following three days they had fasted and prayed and
repeated Jesus' teachings. On the third day, they sang and
rejoiced, breaking bread together once more in celebration of
Jesus' resurrection. And every year, during the last hour of the
gathering, her father would tell his own story. This year had been
no different. Most had heard his story many times before, but
there were always those who were new to the faith. It was to
these people that her father spoke.
He stood, a simple man with gray hair and beard, and dark
eyes full of light and serenity. There was nothing remarkable
about him. Even as he spoke, he was ordinary. It was the touch of
God's hand that made him different from others.
"My father was a good man, a Benjaminite who loved God
and taught me the law of Moses," he began quietly, looking into
the eyes of those who sat about him. "He was a merchant near
Jerusalem and married my mother, the daughter of a poor husbandman.
We were not rich and we were not poor. For all we
had, my father gave glory and thanks to God.
"When the Passover came, we closed our small shop and
entered the city. Mother stayed with friends and prepared for the
Passover. My father and I spent our time at the temple. To hear
God's Word was to eat meat, and I dreamed of being a scribe. But
it would not come to pass. When I was fourteen, my father died
and, with no brothers and sisters, it was necessary for me to take
over his business. Times were very hard, and I was young and
inexperienced, but God was good. He provided."
He closed his eyes. "Then a fever took hold of me. I struggled
against death. I could hear my mother weeping and crying out to
God. Lord, I prayed, don't let me die. My mother needs me. Without
me, she is alone, with no one to provide for her. Please do not
take me now! But death came. It surrounded me like a cold darkness
and took hold of me." The hush in the room was almost tangible
as his listeners awaited the ending.
No matter how many times Hadassah had heard the story, she
never tired of it nor lost the power of it. As her father spoke, she
could feel the dark and lonely force that had claimed him.
Chilled, she wrapped her arms around her legs and hugged them
against her chest as he went on.
"My mother said friends were carrying me along the road to
my tomb when Jesus passed by. The Lord heard her weeping and
took pity. My mother didn't know who he was when he stopped
the funeral procession, but there were many with him, followers,
as well as the sick and crippled. Then she recognized him, for he
touched me and I arose."
Hadassah wanted to leap up and cry out in joy. Some of those
around her wept, their faces transfixed with wonder and awe.
Others wanted to touch her father, to lay hands on a man who
had been brought back from death by Christ Jesus. And they had
so many questions. How did you feel when you arose? Did you
speak with him? What did he say to you? What did he look like?
In the upper room, with the gathering of believers, Hadassah
had felt safe. She had felt strength. In that place, she could feel
the presence of God and his love. "He touched me and I arose."
God's power could overcome anything.
Then they would leave the upper room and, as her father
walked the family back to the small house where they stayed,
Hadassah's ever-present fear would rise again. She always prayed
her father wouldn't stop and speak. When he told his story to
believers, they wept and rejoiced. To unbelievers, he was an
object of ridicule. The euphoria and security she felt with those
who shared her faith dissolved when she watched her father stand
before a crowd and suffer their abuse.
"Listen to me, O men of Judah!" he would call out, drawing
people to him. "Listen to the good news I have to tell you."
They listened at first. He was an old man and they were curious.
Prophets were always a diversion. He was not eloquent like
the religious leaders; he spoke simply from his heart. And always
people laughed and mocked him. Some threw rotten vegetables
and fruit, some called him mad. Others became enraged at his
story of resurrection, shouting that he was a liar and blasphemer.
Two years ago he had been so badly beaten that two friends
had to help carry him back to the small rented house where they
always stayed. Elkanah and Benaiah had tried to reason with him.
"Hananiah, you must not come back here," Elkanah had said. ·.
"The priests know who you are and want you silenced. They are
not so foolish as to have a trial, but there are many evil men who
will do another's will for a shekel. Shake the dust of Jerusalem
from your shoes and go somewhere that the message will be
heard."
"And where else can that be but here where our Lord died and
arose?"
"Many of those who witnessed his resurrection have fled
imprisonment and death at the hands of the Pharisees," Benaiah
had said. "Even Lazarus has left Judea."
"Where did he go?"
"I was told he took his sisters and Mary of Magdala to Gaul."
"I cannot leave Judea. Whatever happens, this is where the
Lord wants me."
Benaiah had grown silent for a long moment and then he nodded
slowly. "Then it shall be as the Lord wills it."
Elkanah had agreed and laid his hand on her father's.
"Shelemoth and Cyrus are remaining here. They will give you aid
when you are in Jerusalem. I am taking my family away from this
city. Benaiah is coming with me. May God's face shine upon you,
Hananiah. You and Rebekkah will be in our prayers. And your
children, too."
Hadassah had wept, her hopes of leaving this wretched city
dashed. Her faith was weak. Her father always forgave his tormenters
and attackers, while she prayed they would know all the
fires of hell for what they had done to him. She often prayed that
God would change his will and send her father to a place other
than Jerusalem. Someplace small and peaceful where people
would listen.
"Hadassah, we know that God uses all things for good to
those who love him, to those who are called according to his purpose,"
her mother said often, trying to comfort her.
"What good is there in a beating? What good in being spit
upon? Why must he suffer so?"
In the peaceful hills of Galilee, with the blue sea stretched out
before her and lilies of the field at her back, Hadassah could
believe in God's love. At home, in those hills, her faith was
strong. It warmed her and made her heart sing.
In Jerusalem, though, she struggled. She clung to her faith, but
still found it slipping away from her. Doubt was her companion,
fear was overwhelming.
"Father, why can we not believe and remain silent?"
"We are called upon to be the light of the world."
"They hate us more with each passing year."
"Hatred is the enemy, Hadassah. Not the people."
"It is people who beat you, Father. Did not the Lord himself
tell us not to cast pearls before the swine?"
"Hadassah, if I am to die for him, I will die joyfully. What I do
is for his good purpose. The truth does not go out and come back
empty. You must have faith, Hadassah. Remember the promise.
We are part of the body of Christ, and in Christ we have eternal
life. Nothing can separate us. No power on earth. Not even
death."
She had pressed her face against his chest, the rough woven
tunic he wore rubbing against her skin. "Why can I believe at
home, Father, but not here?"
"Because the enemy knows where you are most vulnerable."
He had put his hand over hers. "Do you remember the story of
Jehoshaphat? The sons of Moab and Ammon and Mount Seir
came against him with a mighty army. The Spirit of the Lord
came upon Jahaziel and God said through him, `Do not be afraid
nor dismayed because of this great multitude, for the battle is not
yours, but God's.' While they sang and praised the Lord, the Lord
himself set ambushes against their enemies. And in the morning,
when the Israelites came to the lookout of the wilderness, they
saw the bodies of the dead. No one escaped. The Israelites had
not even raised a hand in battle, and the battle was won."
Kissing her head, he had said, "Stand firm in the Lord, Hadassah.
Stand firm and let him fight your battles. Do not try to fight
alone."
Hadassah sighed, trying to ignore the burning in her stomach.
How she missed her father's counsel in the silent loneliness of this
house. If she believed everything he had taught her, she would
rejoice that he was now with the Lord. Instead she ached with
grief, which swelled and spilled over her in waves, spreading with
it a strange, confused anger.
Why did her father have to be such a fool for Christ? The
people didn't want to hear; they didn't believe. His testimony
offended them. His words drove them mad with hatred. Why
couldn't he, just once, have remained silent and stayed within the
safe confines of this small house? He'd still be alive, here in this
room, comforting them and giving them hope instead of leaving
them to fend for themselves. Why couldn't he have been sensible
this one time and waited out the storm?
The door opened slowly and Hadassah's heart leapt in fright,
snapping her back to the grim present. Robbers had broken into
the houses down the street, murdering the occupants for a loaf of
hoarded bread. But it was Mark who entered. She let out her
breath, relieved to see him. "I was so afraid for you," she whispered
with feeling. "You've been gone for hours."
He pushed the door closed and sank down, exhausted, against
the wall near their sister. "What did you find?" She waited for
him to take whatever he had found from his shirt. Whatever food
was found had to be secreted or someone would attack him for it.
Mark looked at her hopelessly. "Nothing. Nothing at all. Not
a worn shoe, not even shield leather from a dead soldier. Nothing."
He started to cry, his shoulders shaking.
"Shhh, you'll awaken Leah and Mama." Hadassah gently laid
her mother back against the blanket and went to him. She put her
arms around him and leaned her head against his chest. "You
tried, Mark. I know you tried."
"Maybe it's God's will that we die."
"I'm not sure I want to know God's will anymore," she said
without thinking. Quick tears came. "Mama said the Lord will
provide," she said, but the words sounded empty. Her faith was
so weak. She was not like Father and Mother. Even Leah, young
as she was, loved the Lord wholeheartedly. And Mark sounded so
accepting of death. Why was she always the one who questioned
and doubted?
Have faith. Have faith. When you have nothing else, have faith.
Mark shuddered, drawing her out of her gloomy thoughts.
"They are throwing bodies into the Wadi El Rabadi behind the
holy temple. Thousands, Hadassah."
Hadassah remembered the horror of the Valley of Hinnom. It
was there that Jerusalem disposed of the dead and unclean animals
and dumped the night soil. Baskets of hooves, entrails, and
animal remains from the temple were carried there and dumped.
Rats and carrion birds infested the place, and the stench frequently
was carried in hot winds across the city. Father called it
Gehenna. "It was not far from here that our Lord was crucified."
Mark pushed his hand back through his hair. "I was afraid to
go closer."
Hadassah shut her eyes tightly, but the question rose stark and
raw against her will. Had her father been cast into that place, desecrated
and left to rot in the hot sun? She bit her lip and tried to
force the thought away.
"I saw Titus," Mark said dully. "He rode over with some of
his men. When he saw the bodies, he cried out. I could not hear
his words, but a man said he was calling out to Jehovah that it
was not his doing."
"If the city surrendered now, would he show mercy?"
"If he could contain his men. They hate the Jews and want to
see them destroyed."
"And us along with them." She shivered. "They will not know
the difference between believers of the Way and zealots, will they?
Seditionist or righteous Jew or even Christian, it will make no difference."
Her eyes blurred with tears. "Is this the will of God,
Mark?"
"Father said it is not God's will that any should suffer."
"Then why must we?"
"We bear the consequences for what we have done to ourselves,
and for the sin that rules this world. Jesus forgave the
thief, but he didn't take him down off the cross." He pushed his
hand back through his hair. "I'm not wise like Father. I haven't
any answers to why, but I know there is hope."
"What hope, Mark? What hope is there?"
"God always leaves a remnant."
The siege wore on, and while life within Jerusalem ebbed, the
spirit of Jewish resistance did not. Hadassah remained within the
small house, hearing the horror of what was just beyond their
unbohed door. A man was screaming and running down the
street. "They've ascended the wall!"
When Mark went out to find out what was happening, Leah
became hysterical. Hadassah went to her sister and held her
tightly. She felt near to hysteria herself, but tending her young sister
helped calm her.
"Everything will be all right, Leah. Be still." Her words
sounded meaningless in her own ears. "The Lord is watching over
us," she said and stroked her sister gently.
A litany of comforting lies, for the world was crumbling
around them. Hadassah looked across the room at her mother
and felt the tears coming again. Her mother smiled weakly as
though trying to reassure her, but she felt no reassurance. What
would become of them?
When Mark returned, he told them of the battle raging within
the walls. The Jews had turned it and were driving the Romans
back.
However, that night, under the cover of darkness, ten legionnaires
sneaked through the ruins of the city and took possession
of Antonia Tower. The battle had come to the very entrance of
the holy temple. Though driven back again, the Romans countered
by overthrowing some of the foundations of the tower and
laid open the court of the Gentiles. In an attempt to divert them,
zealots attacked the Romans at the Mount of Olives. Failing, they
were destroyed. The prisoners taken were crucified before the
walls for all to see.
Stillness fell again. And then a new, more devastating horror
spread through the city as word passed of a starving woman who
had eaten her own child. The flame of Roman hatred was fanned
into a blaze.
Josephus cried out again to his people that God was using the
Romans to destroy them, fulfilling the prophecies of the prophets
Daniel and Jesus. The Jews gathered all the dry materials, bitumen,
and pitch they could find and filled the cloisters. The
Romans drove forward, and the Jews gave ground, luring the
Romans into the temple. Once inside, the Jews set their holy
place on fire, burning many of the legionnaires to death within it.
Titus regained control of his enraged soldiers and ordered the
fire put out, but no sooner had they succeeded in saving the
temple than the Jews attacked again. This time all the officers of
Rome couldn't restrain the fury of the Roman legionnaires who,
driven by a lust for Jewish blood, once again torched the temple
and killed every human being in their path as they began plundering
the conquered city.
Men fell by the hundreds as flames engulfed the Babylonian
curtain, embroidered with fine blue, scarlet, and purple thread.
High on the temple roof, a false prophet cried out for the people
to climb up and be delivered. People's screams of agony as they
burned alive carried across the city, mingling with the horrifying
sounds of battle in the streets and alleys. Men, women, children—it
made no difference, all fell to the sword.
Hadassah tried to shut it out of her mind, but the sound of
death was everywhere. Her mother died on the same hot August
day that Jerusalem fell, and for two days, Hadassah, Mark, and
Leah waited, knowing the Romans would find them sooner or
later and destroy them as they were destroying everyone else.
Someone fled down their narrow street. Others screamed as
they were cut down without mercy. Hadassah wanted to jump up
and run away, but where could she go? And what of her sister
and her brother? She pressed further back into the darkening
shadows of the small rooms and held Leah.
More men's voices. Louder. Closer. A door was smashed open
not far away. The people inside screamed. One by one, they were
silenced.
Weak and gaunt, Mark struggled to his feet and stood before
the door, praying silently. Hadassah's heart beat heavily, her
empty stomach tightening into a ball of pain. She heard men's
voices in the street. The words were Greek, the tone scornful.
One man gave orders to search the next houses. Another door
was smashed in. More screams.
The sound of hobnailed shoes came to their door. Hadassah's
heart jumped wildly. "Oh, God ."
"Close your eyes, Hadassah," Mark told her, sounding
strangely calm. "Remember the Lord," he said as the door
crashed open. Mark uttered a harsh, broken sound and dropped
to his knees. A bloody sword tip protruded from his back, staining
the gray tunic red. Leah's high-pitched scream filled the small
room.
The Roman soldier kicked Mark back, freeing his sword.
Hadassah could not utter a sound. Staring up at the man, his
armor covered with dust and her brother's blood, Hadassah
couldn't move. His eyes glittered through his visor. When he
stepped forward, raising his bloody sword, Hadassah moved
swiftly and without conscious thought. She shoved Leah down
and fell across her. Oh, God, let it be over quickly, she prayed.Let it be swift. Leah fell silent. The only sound was that of the soldier's
rasping breathing, mingled with screams from down the
street.
Tertius gripped his sword harder and glared down at the emaciated
young girl covering an even smaller girl. He ought to kill
them both and have done with it! These bloody Jews were a
blight to Rome. Eating their own children! Destroy the women
and there would be no more warriors birthed. This nation
deserved annihilation. He should just kill them and be done with
it.
What stopped him?
The older girl looked up at him, her dark eyes full of fear. She
was so small and thin, except for those eyes, too large for her
ashen face. Something about her sapped the killing strength of his
arm. His breathing eased, his heartbeat slowed.
He tried to remind himself of the friends he had lost. Diocles
had been killed by a stone while building the siege works.
Malcenas had been fallen upon by six fighters when they had
breached the first wall. Capaneus had burned to death when the
Jews had set fire to their own temple. Albion still suffered
wounds from a Jew's dart.
Yet, the heat in his blood cooled.
Shaking, Tertius lowered his sword. Still alert to any movement
the girl made, he glanced around the small room. His vision
cleared of the red haze. It was a boy he had killed. He lay in a
pool of blood beside a woman. She looked peaceful, as though
she merely slept, her hair carefully combed, her hands folded on
her chest. Unlike those who had chosen to dump their dead in the
wadi, these children had lain out their mother with dignity.
He had heard the story of a woman eating her own child and
it had fed his hatred of Jews, gained from ten long years in Judea.
He had wanted nothing more than to obliterate them from the
face of the earth. They had been nothing but trouble to Rome
from the beginning—rebellious and proud, unwilling to bend to
anything but their one true god.
One true god. Tertius' hard mouth twisted in a sneer. Fools, all
of them. To believe in only one god was not only ridiculous, it
was uncivilized. And for all their holy protestations and stubborn
persistence, they were a barbaric race. Look what they had done
to their own temple.
How many Jews had he killed in the last five months? He
hadn't bothered to count as he went from house to house, driven
by bloodlust, hunting them down like animals. By the gods, he
had relished it, accounting each death as a small token payment
for the friends they had taken from him.
Why did he hesitate now? Was this pity for a foul Jewess brat?
It would be merciful to kill her and put her out of her misery. She
was so thin from starvation that he could blow her over with a
breath. He took another step toward her. He could kill both girls
with one blow . tried to summon the will to do so.
The girl waited. It was clear she was terrified, yet she did not
beg for mercy as so many had done. Both she and the child
beneath her were still and silent, watching.
Tertius' heart twisted, and he felt weak. He drew a ragged
breath and exhaled sharply. Uttering a curse, he shoved his sword
into the scabbard at his side. "You will live, but you will not
thank me for it."
Hadassah knew Greek. It was a common language among the
Roman legionnaires and so was heard all over Judea. She started
to cry. He grasped her arm and yanked her to her feet.
Tertius looked at the little girl lying on the floor. Her eyes were
open and fixed on some distant place to which her mind had
escaped. It was not the first time he had seen such a look. She
would not last long.
"Leah," Hadassah said, frightened at the vacant look in her
eyes. She bent down and put her arms around her. "My sister,"
she said, trying to draw her up.
Tertius knew the little girl was as good as dead already and it
would make more sense to leave her. Yet, the way the older girl
tried to gather the child in her arms and lift her, roused his pity.
Even the child's slight weight was too much for her.
Brushing her aside, Tertius lifted the tiny girl easily and gently
slung her over his shoulder like a sack of grain. Grasping the
older girl by the arm, he pushed her out the door.
The street was quiet, the other soldiers having moved on. Distant
cries rang out. He walked quickly, aware that the girl was
struggling to keep up.
The air of the city was foul with death. Bodies were everywhere,
some slain by Roman soldiers pillaging the conquered city,
others dead of starvation, now bloated and decaying from days of
being left to putrefy. The look of horror on the girl's face made
Tertius wonder how long she had been cooped up in that house.
"Your great Holy City," he said and spat into the dust.
Pain licked up Hadassah's arm as the legionnaire's fingers dug
into her flesh. She stumbled over a dead man's leg. His face was
crawling with maggots. The dead were everywhere. She felt faint.
The farther they walked, the more horrifying the carnage.
Decaying bodies lay tangled together like slaughtered animals.
The stench of blood and death was so heavy Hadassah covered
her mouth.
"Where do we take captives?" Tertius shouted at a soldier separating
the dead. Two soldiers were lifting a Roman comrade
from between two Jews. Other legionnaires appeared with plunder
from the temple. Wagons were already loaded with golden
and silver sprinkling bowls, dishes, wick trimmers, pots, and
lampstands. Bronze shovels and pots were piled up, as well as
basins, censers, and other articles used in temple service.
The soldier looked up at Tertius, casting a cursory glance over
Hadassah and Leah. "Down that street and around through the
big gate, but those two don't look worth bothering with."
Hadassah looked up at the temple's once pristine marble, the
marble that had appeared as a snow-covered mountain in the distance,
it was blackened, chunks had been gouged out by siege
stones, the gold melted away. Whole sections of Wall were broken
down. The holy temple. It was just another place of death and
destruction.
She moved sluggishly, sickened and terrified at all she saw.
Smoke burned her eyes and throat. As they walked along the wall
of the temple, she could hear a rising, undulating sound of horror
coming from within it. Her mouth was parched and her heart
pounded harder and faster as they approached the gate to the
Women's Court.
Tertius gave the girl a shove. "You faint and I'll kill you where
you drop, and your sister with you."
Thousands of survivors were within the court, some moaning
in their misery and others wailing for their dead. The soldier
pushed her ahead of him through the gate, and she saw the ragged
multitude before her. They crowded the courtyard. Most
were gaunt with starvation, weak, hopeless.
Tertius lowered the child from his shoulder. Hadassah caught
hold of Leah and tried to support her. She sank down weakly and
held her sister limply across her lap. The soldier turned and
walked away.
Thousands milled around, looking for relatives or friends.
Others huddled in smaller groups weeping, while some, alone,
stared at nothing—as Leah did. The air was so hot Hadassah
could hardly breathe.
A Levite rent his worn blue and orange tunic and cried out in
an agony of emotion, "My God! My God! Why hast thou forsaken
us?" A woman near him began to wail miserably, her gray
dress bloodstained and torn at the shoulder. An old man wrapped
in black-and-white striped robes sat alone against the court wall,
his lips moving. Hadassah knew he was of the Sanhedrin, his
robes symbolizing the desert costume and the tents of the first
patriarchs.
Mingled among the crowd were Nazirites with their long,
braided hair, and zealots with dirty, ragged trousers and shirts
over which they wore short sleeveless vests with a blue fringe at
each corner. Divested of their knives and bows, they still looked
menacing.
A fight broke out. Women began screaming. A dozen Roman
legionnaires waded into the multitude and cut down the adversaries,
as well as several others whose only offense was to be in close
proximity. A Roman officer stood on the high steps and shouted
down at the captives. He pointed out several more men in the
crowd and they were dragged away to be crucified.
Hadassah managed to draw Leah up and move to a safer place
by the wall, near the Levite. As the sun went down and darkness
came, she held Leah close, trying to share her warmth. But in the
morning, Leah was dead.
Her sister's sweet face was free of fear and suffering. Her lips
were curved in a gentle smile. Hadassah held her against her chest
and rocked her. Pain swelled and filled her with a despair so deep
she couldn't even cry. When a Roman soldier came over, she
scarcely noticed until he tried to take Leah away from her. She
held her sister tighter.
"She's dead. Give her to me."
Hadassah pressed her face into the curve of her sister's neck
and moaned. The Roman had seen enough death to become hardened
by it. He struck Hadassah once, breaking her hold, and then
kicked her aside. Dazed, her body laced with pain, Hadassah
stared helplessly as the soldier carried Leah to a wagon stacked
with the bodies of others who had died during the night. He
tossed her sister's fragile body carelessly onto the heap.
Shutting her eyes, Hadassah drew up her legs and wept against
her knees.
The days ran together. Hundreds died of starvation, more of
despair and lost hope. Some of the able-bodied captives were
taken to dig mass graves.
Rumors spread that Titus had given orders to demolish not
only the temple but the entire city. Only the Phasaelus, Hippicus,
and Mariamne towers were to be left standing for defensive purposes,
and a portion of the western wall. Not since the Babylonian
king Nebuchadnezzar had destroyed Solomon's temple had
such a thing happened. Jerusalem, their beloved Jerusalem, would
be no more.
The Romans brought in corn for the captives. Some Jews, still
stiff-necked against Roman rule, refused their portions in a last
and fatal act of rebellion. More grievous were the sick and weak
who were denied food because the Romans did not wish to waste
corn on those who would not likely survive the coming march to
Caesarea. Hadassah was one of the latter, and so received no food.
One morning, Hadassah was taken with the others outside the
city walls. She stared with horror at the scene before her. Thousands
of Jews had been crucified before the crumbling walls of
Jerusalem. Scavenging birds feasted upon them. The ground on
the siege work had drunk in so much blood it was as red-brown
and hard as brick, but the land itself was beyond anything Hadassah
had expected. Other than the great, gruesome forest of
crosses, there was not a tree, nor a bush, nor even a blade of
grass. A wasteland lay before her, and at her back was the mighty
city even now being reduced to rubble.
"Keep moving!" a guard shouted, his whip hissing through the
air near her and cracking on a man's back. Another man ahead of
her groaned deeply and collapsed. When the guard drew his
sword, a woman tried to stop him, but he struck her down with
his fist, then with one swift stroke, opened an artery in the fallen
man's neck. Taking the twitching man by his arm, he dragged him
to the edge of the siege bank and pushed him over the side. The
body rolled slowly to the bottom, where it took its place in the
rocks amongst other corpses. Another captive helped the weeping
woman to her feet, and they went on.
Their captors sat them within sight and sound of Titus' camp.
"It would seem we must suffer through a Roman triumph," a
man said bitterly, the blue tassels on his vest identifying him as a
zealot.
"Be silent or you will be crow bait like those other poor
fools," someone hissed at him.
As the captives watched, the legions formed and marched in
tightly drilled units before Titus, who was resplendent in his golden
armor. There were more captives than soldiers, but the
Romans moved as one great beast of war, organized and disciplined.
To Hadassah, the rhythmic cadence of thousands of men
marching in perfect formation was terrifying to watch. A single
voice or signal could make hundreds move as one. How could
any people think they could overcome such as these? They filled
the horizon.
Titus gave a speech, pausing now and then as the soldiers
cheered. Then the awards were presented. Officers stood before
the men, their armor cleaned and gleaming in the sunlight. Lists
were read of those who had performed great exploits in the war.
Titus himself placed crowns of gold on their heads and golden
ornaments about their necks. To some he gave long golden spears
and silver ensigns. Each was awarded the honor of removal to
higher rank.
Hadassah looked around at her fellows and saw their bitter
hatred; having to witness this ceremony poured salt in their open
wounds.
Heaps of spoils were distributed among the soldiers, then Titus
spoke again, commending his men and wishing them great fortune
and happiness. Jubilant, the soldiers cried out their acclamations
to him time and time again as he came down among them.
Finally, he gave orders that the feasting begin. Great numbers
of oxen were held ready at the altars to the Roman gods, and at
Titus' command they were sacrificed. Hadassah's father had told
her Jewish law required the shedding of blood as an atonement
for sin. She knew priests within the holy temple performed the
sacrifices daily, a constant reminder of the need for repentance.
Yet her father and mother had taught her from birth that Christ
had shed his blood as an atonement for the sins of the world, that
the law of Moses had been fulfilled in him, that animal sacrifices
were no longer needed. So she had never seen animals sacrificed.
Now she watched in grim horror as one ox after another was
killed as a thank offering. The sight of so much blood spilling
down over stone altars sickened her. Gagging, she closed her eyes
and turned away.
The slain oxen were distributed to the victorious army for a
great feast. The tantalizing aroma of roasting beef drifted to hungry
captives across the night air. Even had they been offered
some, righteous Jews would have refused to eat it. Better dust and
death than meat sacrificed to pagan gods.
At last, soldiers came and ordered the captives to line up for
their rations of wheat and barley. Weakly, Hadassah rose and
stood in the long line, sure she would again be denied food. Her
eyes blurred with tears. Oh, God, God, do as you will. Cupping
her hands as her turn came, she waited to be shoved aside.
Instead, golden kernels spilled from the scoop into her palms.
She could almost hear her mother's voice. "The Lord will provide."
She looked up into the young soldier's eyes. His face, weathered
from the Judean sun, was hard, devoid of any emotion.
"Thank you," she said in Greek and with simple humility, without
even a thought as to who he was or what he might have done.
His eyes flickered. Someone shoved her hard from behind and
cursed her in Aramaic.
As she moved away, she was unaware the young soldier still
watched her. He dipped the scoop into the barrel again, pouring
corn into the hands of the next in line without taking his eyes
from her.
Hadassah sat down on the hillside. She was separate from the
others, alone within herself. Bowing her head, she tightened her
hands around the corn. Emotion swelled. "You prepare a table
before me in the presence of my enemies," she whispered brokenly
and began to weep. "Oh, Father, forgive me. Amend my
ways. But gently, Lord, lest you reduce me to nothing. I am
afraid. Father, I am so afraid. Preserve me by the strength of your
arm."
She opened her eyes and opened her hands again. "The Lord
provides," she said softly and ate slowly, savoring each kernel.
As the sun went down, Hadassah felt oddly at peace. Even
with all the destruction and death around her, with all the suffering
ahead, she felt God's nearness. She looked up at the clear
night sky. The stars were bright and a wind blew softly, reminding
her of Galilee.
The night was warm . she had eaten . she would live."God always leaves a remnant," Mark had said. Of all the members
of her family, her faith was weakest, her spirit the most
doubting and the least bold. Of all of them, she was least worthy.
"Why me, Lord?" she asked, weeping softly. "Why me?"
